RING N THINGS !

A LONG TIME AGO I LOST MY WEDDING RING.   IT STILL MIGHT SHOW UP BUT BASICALLY IT IS GONE.
IT MEANT MORE TO ME THAN JUST A SYMBOLIC MARRIAGE THING.    MY MOM HELPED MARK PICK IT OUT.    SHE PASSED AWAY BEFORE HE GAVE IT TO ME.   SHE KNEW BEFORE I DID.
  IT WAS IN 2 PARTS.  IT WAS A BAND AND A RING WITH A DIAMOND.  AFTER OUR WEDDING THEY WERE FUSED TOGETHER.  IT WAS SIMPLE BUT BEAUTIFUL.  THE DIAMOND WAS FROM MY GRANDMOTHER.   IT MEANS A LOT TO ME THAN JUST A WEDDING RING.  IT IS GONE THOUGH AND JUST A THING,   REALLY.  I AM NOT GOING TO THINK IT IS TRAGIC.  
I HAVE WANTED TO REPLACE IT FOR A LONG TIME.   I WAS THINKING IT WAS JUST BECAUSE WE COULDN'T AFFORD IT.  I DON'T THINK THAT WAS IT THOUGH.  NOTHING SEEMED RIGHT.  IF I DON'T HAVE THAT RING I DIDN'T WANT ANY.
I WANTED A RING THOUGH.  I WAS TALKING TO MY GOOD FRIEND ANDERSON ABOUT IT.  SO MANY THANKS TO HIM.  HE HAS A TUNGSTEN RING.  I LIKED THE IDEA.  IT IS SIMPLE AND NOT EXPENSIVE BUT IT IS A WEDDING BAND.   IF I LOSE IT,  IT IS JUST A THING.   IT IS TOUGH AND CAN TAKE ABUSE.  I AM NOT A GENTLE PERSON!  MAYBE IN MY HEART.
HE GOT A CATALOG FROM HIS OLD JOB FOR HIS 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY.  IT WAS FUNNY BECAUSE IT WAS DURING HIS TWO WEEK NOTICE.  IN THERE WAS A RING.  A TUNGSTEN RING!  SURE IT IS FOR A MAN, BUT IT IS A RING..AND FREE!!   
TODAY I GOT IT.  I AM SO HAPPY.    IT IS A LITTLE TOO BULKY BUT  NOTHING IS PERFECT,  EXCEPT LOVE! 

THANKS TO LIFE SAVING FRIENDS

I WANTED TO GIVE A BIG HUGE SPECIAL THANKS TO THESE GUYS.   IN THE PHOTOS FROM LEFT TO RIGHT IS  ARLO GUTHRIE,   MARK HUGHES,   MARK HUGHES,  JIM WAMPLER,  JIM WAMPLER,   RICHARD MYERS,  RICHARD MYERS,   MARK HUGHES.

THESE GUYS HAVE MADE A HUGE IMPACT ON MY LIFE.

  I GUESS I WILL GIVE MY GRATITUDE LEFT TO RIGHT.  ARLO GAVE ME THE TOOLS TO BE HAPPY AND LOVED.  HE SAVED MY LIFE MORE THAN ONCE BY TEACHING ME HOW TO LOVE,  HOW TO BE HAPPY,  AND LIFE'S BLESSINGS.   I WOULD NOT BE HERE IF I HAD NOT USED THOSE TOOLS.    YOU NEED A HAMMER TO POUND IN A NAIL.  I AM GRATEFUL HE GAVE ME A HAMMER.
MARK, WOW!  HE IS THE BIGGEST BLESSING I NEVER ASKED FOR IN MY LIFE.   HIS LOVE GROWS.   HE IS MUCH MORE THAN A HUSBAND.  HE IS MY MISTER HAPPY.  THERE IS SO MUCH I COULD SAY ABOUT HIM.

JIM IS MY BEST FRIEND.  HE HAS STUCK BY ME THROUGH SOME PRETTY UGLY TIMES IN MY LIFE.  LIKE MARK,  I NEVER HAVE TO DOUBT HIS LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP.  IT IS A SPECIAL THING TO HAVE SOMEONE  TO LAUGH, LOVE, CRY, AND PLAY WITH. 

ALL OF THIS IS MAKING ME SMILE AND CRY AT THE SAME TIME!!

WHERE WAS I?

RICHARD HAS MADE THE BIGGEST IMPACT ON MY LIFE.  EXCEPT FOR MY FAMILY AND A FEW PEOPLE I KNOW FROM GROWING UP,  SOME PEOPLE IN COLLEGE AWAY FROM FILM,  EVERYONE I KNOW AND LOVE IS BECAUSE I TOOK RICHARD'S CLASS.   I AM NOT EVEN SURE WHEN I FIRST TOOK FILM.  IT WAS AROUND 1981 - 1982.   OH, I GUESS IT WOULD BE WHEN I TOOK STEVE SCHULER'S CLASS.  I  DIDN'T HAVE RICHARD UNTIL FILM II!    ANYWHOO,    ALMOST EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE NOW IS BECAUSE I MET HIM.

 I AM SO SO LUCKY TO HAVE SUCH STELLAR PEOPLE HAVING MY BACK.  THEY HELPED ME SURVIVE,  THRIVE,  AND GROW.   I DON'T KNOW WHY OR HOW I GOT SO LUCKY.   

LOCKS OF LOVE

I AM GROWING MY HAIR OUT FOR LOCKS OF LOVE.  THEY MAKE WIGS FOR CHILDREN.
IF YOU CAN SPONSOR ME NO AMOUNT IS TOO SMALL!
I WANT TO GROW MY HAIR  4 TO 6 MORE INCHES.  
  THANK YOU  MARY MARY<3

P.S. FOR SOME PEOPLE WHO USE PAYPAL THEY DEDUCT A FEE.  THERE IS TIME SO I WOULD PREFER CHECK OR CASH IF YOU SEE ME.  THAT WAY IT ALL GOES TO THE KIDS. IF YOU NEED MY SNAIL MAIL JUST WRITE ME.

MY FACE ~ MY HEART

Sometimes I see my old face.   I noticed a few years ago that I can sometimes see my old face. Sometimes I see my  Mother's face.  I wonder what she thought about when she looked in the mirror and saw her old face?   She went on into the other reality too soon.  She wasn't much older then I am now.

  I find it interesting that the mirror says one thing.  The person in my heart is ageless.   This me knows the battle grounds, the joys and all that.  This me has no age.  This me is 2, 13, 24, 52!   No matter how old you are the  wrinkles, arthritic joints, and declining senses do not matter.   You are ageless.

FOR ANYONE WITH HAIR OR LOVES SOMEONE WHO DOES!

Okay... Now I am going to shout from the mountain top!!  I have long hair; right, and thick.   I used the baking soda as a shampoo and braggs  apple cider vinegar for a conditioner for the second time.   I am sold!! 
I can not believe it works so well.  It really works on my hair.  Everyone should at least try it.  If you have short wash and go hair you should be doing this.  It will save you money and makes your hair happy.
Every one has baking soda, right?   If you are not using braggs or some other organic cider vinegar with the mother in it or whatever it is called why aren't you? Google it!
AMAZING!!!!!!

NEW YEAR ~ BRING IT!!

I'VE ALREADY BEEN THINKING/ANALYZING MY LIFE.

I WANT TO RECONNOITER AND TRY HARDER.

NOT A SELF LOATHING KIND OF THING.

GAME PLAN.

I WAS SURPRISED THIS YEAR THAT I'D STILL BE THIS SICK.

I DID MORE  WORK THAN I REALIZED.

I NEED TO WORK HARDER ON LINING THINGS UP FOR THE FUTURE

EVEN WHEN I AM STILL WORKING ON SOMETHING

I NEED TO BE PLANING ON WHAT'S NEXT.

SOME CONSISTENCY WOULD BE NICE BUT I'VE NEVER HAD THAT.

I MISSED OUT ON DOING SOME HUSTLE BECAUSE I WAS SICK.

I WANT TO BE MORE FOCUSED ON

SOME GOALS

TO WORK HARDER ON GETTING HEALTHY

TO DO THIS I REALLY NEED TO BE MORE ACTIVE

I NEED TO BE MORE DISCIPLINED DOING WHAT I KNOW IS RIGHT

FOR MY HEALTH

I NEED TO MEDITATE MORE

STOP  HALF-ASS THAT

SOME THINGS THAT SHOULD CHANGE

I NEED TRANSPORTATION

I NEED SPACE

IF WE CAN NOT MOVE WE NEED TO GET REAL AND GET RID OF AT LEAST 1/3 OR MORE OF  THINGS AROUND HERE

I NEED MORE MONEY BUT I REALLY NEED TO STOP WORRYING ABOUT MONEY CRAP

I HAVE BEEN GIVEN GIFTS.

I LOVE MY LIFE.

I NEED TO START BLASTING AND STOP HIDING.

FEAR AND EGO ARE SUCKY.

I AM GOING TO  KEEP WORKING ON MAKING THEM TINY.

LIVING FROM MY HEART,  LIVING FROM LOVE,  HAS CHANGED MY LIFE.

I NEVER THOUGHT MY LIFE WOULD BE THIS AWESOME.

NOW I NEED TO BOOGY!!

WAITING FOR MY PAINT TO DRY!